Can my medication be causing manic-like mood swings? Sometimes I’m incredibly fine, and others I’m so low that I feel hopeless. Tuesday was really bad, yesterday I was fine, and today I feel somewhere closer to the blah side of things but not as bad as I was 48 hours ago. Not to mention I’m suffering from back pain and period cramps, and I hardly slept last night due to the presence (and subsequent death) of a large bug in my bed.
I keep feeling like I should go ‘somewhere’ with my blog, but I’ve pretty much decided it’s staying in the diary/journal phase. I have kept journals on and off throughout my life, never with much success. I’m really trying, because it’s therapeutic to at least put my thoughts out there to re-read later, and keep in mind if you’re reading my blog I do NOT want your sympathy. That emotion doesn’t sit well with me.
I may be a hypochondriac, or at least bordering on it. This new, odd mole on my leg is freaking me out. I’m asking my doc about it Monday when I go, but in the meantime it’s causing me stress even though it’s 99.9% likely that it’s nothing at all. I’m also partially convinced we’re all going to die of the Swine Flu anyways. Another problem causing me stress is that I was always convinced I’d die at age 27. That wasn’t so fearful, until I turned 27 last November, and I’m going to be SOOO relieved in 3 months when I turn 28 because dying really isn’t something I want to do right now.
In other (lighter) news, my child and her friends feel the need to congregate at my house an HOUR before the school bus comes. The other girls come here at 6:45am and knock on my door, and my dog barks and I immediately start the day off with a headache.
